I’m not as excited for summer as I should be, and it’s hard to admit. My favorite season is spring, and we are finally getting into the heart of it. Not to mention, the weather is perfect when I get to wear my uniform of jeans, a t-shirt, and my sunnies.

It is so nice on campus. It’s finally “teasing our professors with the idea of having class outside” season, which is the most “college” it ever feels. At any moment, a photographer will take something out of a college brochure on Robinson Green. 

But spring unavoidably leads into summer, and unfortunately, I really enjoy school. I always have. I’m in my element when I get to learn something new every day. I try to keep my mind active in the summer, but most of it comes from reading a paperback lazily in my backyard. 

This is the peak of my year, and I cannot help but have this small part of me that is scared of what comes after finals. This has probably been my favorite semester so far at Rowan. I’m finally in my groove, living my best life. It’s hard to say goodbye. 

I almost don’t want summer to come and make me start over. Next semester, when I show up for classes, I’ll be a new version of myself. I know change is inevitable, but it does not make it less scary. 

So yes, I am holding on to the spring semester while most people around me can’t wait for summer to start. And I’ve been experiencing this sense of dread when thinking ahead. Can’t we all live in the moment and enjoy the springtime? 

I think this dread is because I did not have a proper summer last year. I worked around 40 hours a week. When I was not working, I was visiting and taking care of my sick grandparents. If my job were not delivering sunscreen to shore towns all summer, I don’t even think I would have stepped foot near a beach. It might be why I have this weird, looming sense of dread when I think about summer break. 

But there are some things I miss about summer. I miss making money through seasonal work, I miss seeing all my friends from high school, and I miss the relaxed nature of the season. Despite this, there are ten things I’ll miss about the spring semester for every aspect of summer I enjoy. 

When the weather is nice, and I have more free time, it’s a good time to focus on goals. I think it may be wise to make a bucket list for this summer. That way, I can focus more on my goals for the season than on the dread or anxiety. I implore everyone to do the same, even if it’s not formal. Doing a day trip, seeing the sunrise, and trying a new ice cream spot nearby are all simple options. 

In addition to all the other stuff I do regularly, I want to continue to prioritize my health and learn how to identify native birds. One thing I do love about summer is the amount of time I spend outside looking at the birds in my backyard. 

Maybe it’s a good thing I want to enjoy the spring semester and hold onto it. I’m soaking up the last of this semester and saying goodbye to my friends who are graduating in May. It’s normal to enjoy the present moment and be anxious for the near future, even if summer is associated with fun and freedom. 

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